it's MINE

(:

2010-01-23T14:09:00.002+08:00

Actions

If we meet and I say, "Hi,"
That's a salutation.
If you ask me how I feel,
That's a consideration.
If we stop and talk awhile,
That's a conversation.
If we understand each other,
That's communication.
If we argue, scream and fight,
That's altercation.
If later we apologise,
That's reconciliation.
If we help each other home,
That's cooperation.
And all these actions added up
Make civilisation.

(And if I say this is a wonderful poem,
Is that exaggeration?)

stupid talk

2009-08-02T01:31:00.002+08:00

some idiot said, " if you believe in karma, then you're stupid. you think that you do good deeds then you will have a good life, go heaven etc. ya right.... you help ppl, then who help you? "

seriously hate that person who said that.

timid me replied behind his back, " stupid la you. if everyone think that doing good deeds is good. then everyone will help each other what. you help ppl, other ppl help you la! you dont help ppl, of course ppl dont help you ma. dumbo! " " and of course, you help ppl is not because you want your karma points to increase what. want to help then use your heart to help and not because of the greed of getting gd stuff in return then you help ma. if not dont help. "

he was the speaker of a talk i went to with my mother.
about knowing your life, your personality... everything! from your birthdate/and time.
jin, mu, shui, huo, tu.

he is very proud..
the way he speak, actions all those.
idiot.
everything he say, i will rebut back.
i know, he has the capabilities to hao lian.... nvm.
then say himself until like he so gd like that. shit.
if he's really that gd, why don't teach everyone the skill for FREE?!?!
why still charge...
still say like " i want to help you all"
help... ya.. don't fake please!
you only want to earn money.
you money face.
get lost.

from him.. i learnt not to be selfish.
one day, if i'm rich... i will donate to charity
one day, if i'm a genius... i will teach for free
he changed me.
somehow..
in a good way i suppose... :)

sucker!

2009-08-02T00:19:00.005+08:00

so many things have happened within this short while...
and i have seen quite alot.
and from what i experienced and saw..
i conclude that no one will truly treat a person well...
for nothing in return.
somehow i feel that we're all trained to be like that from young.
including me.
(to me my parents are the only exceptions)

i truly truly believe that early childhood learning is EXTREMELY important!
what we become today...
is affected by factors:
-how your parents treat you/their actions
-how your friends treat you/their actions
-surrondings
-belief
and i strongly believe that every child is born innocent and as plain as a piece of white paper..
flawless and pure.

example - parents:
child being abused from young
grows up and abuse his own children

example - friends:
the "famous" gang always wears branded goods
gets respect from everyone
everyone wants to be part of them
the child learns that fame is very important
must get branded goods to be famous

example - surrondings:
from young, the child is taught to steal
if lucky enough,
grows up to steal for a living

---

I'm tired.
really tired..
the good things i see are not enough to cover the bad ones..
i am so disappointed in my life
always when comes talking about this..
to my mother
or thinking about it myself..
i feel like crying.
am i depressed?
i think i am.
someone help me pls......
then again, please don't help me.
if you want something in return.
just get lost.
*#$%^&*!

sometimes
i tell myself
to be optimistic
so i tell myself
"it's good that i see this kind of ppl so i can learn from them.. don't follow them. Like when i dislike how they do things, i dont follow how they do it."
"Life gives me a chance to learn from them so i won't be like them.. not everyone has a chance like that."
"luckily i'm not like that. i'm better. sad for you"
"try to help them. tell them their "not so gd" points.. if they dont change, nvm. i tried my best already. short term, i suffer... but long term. gd luck. "

but before i can really cheer up and get over it...
homework, projects, exams come quickly.
making me too busy to think about it
only when im alone...
too bored..
or worse
when it happens again..
it really piss me off
make me so angry that i really feel like killing someone.
sucks la.

dont want to continue already.

TOday :)

2009-07-12T00:02:00.002+08:00

What a fun day today :)

Firstly, woke up early to meet Cheng Teng and Bee Chen for gym.
school's gym.
haahhs fun.. it's the first time i've been there....
after almost 3 years in SP.
crazy..
ran 2.4km on the... hmm.. what do you call that.. treadmill?
took approx. 27mins. :(
so dead
so so so gonna fail my napfa just because of 2.4 .
but oh well...
will start training for it.
by going gym next saturday!
Yay! :) :)

Then next.. hard-core exercising.
Ballet.
i think today was the day i did the most splits in class.
right, center, to left... to center.. to froggy position..and back to center.. then right, left.....
record.
uncountable.. hahahha..
ok la, not that many.
around complete of 5 sets i guess.
nice..
aim: train till fit. FIT.
goodbye flabby fats.. :)

ah ya....
anyone have any idea or where to find those charity events..
visits to orphanages, outings with children..
volunteer work..
Let me know ok?

don't want to waste my time doing wasteful stuff.
rather spend it on something useful..
busy myself with something meaningful.
then..... life's great!
true? :)

waiting.....for

2009-06-21T16:15:00.003+08:00

i realised, finally agreeing with myself, that i'm waiting for a chance..
i tell myself, promised, that i will go for the next one that comes by..
no matter what!
have to...
getting older
aging like fasttt....
so yea, i must.
but of course with much careful considerations.
and not fall deep, blindly into the black hole..
:) :)

---

a week more left to the dreadful mst week....
and what's worse is i've not started on anything yet!
i'm so dead this time. sigh :(
HATE last minute studying studying
but i'm still doing it!! STUPID OR WHT ! :(

sewing ballet shoes & the stubborn bruise

2009-06-05T22:26:00.003+08:00

YAY!
my holiday-like-no-holiday has officially started today :)
i wasted my whole day today...
except for doing some sewing..
now, my fingers are still hurting.
it feels like there are inner blisters at the tips of the first three fingers on my right hand.
actually, its not as easy as i thought it would be to sew the crochet protector onto the tip of the shoes, the hard part, where i will be standing on....my toes, that is. but not really on the toes.... somehow, i don't know how to explain.
you must wear and try it for yourself to really get what i mean.
Hahahhas!
oh well, at least i felt a sense of satisfaction.... when i'm done :)
pretty pretty shoes.
since the week before last week, i've got this blue-black somewhere near my knee...
its not blue nor brown like those normal blue-blacks people have.....
it is Black. blackish purple.. the size of a fifty cent coin, maybe.
scary and disgusting right..
yea it is.
for so long already.. it is still there!
ok, i admit that i didnt really care about it and never massage it...
but for other bruises i've got, they won't last as long as this.
hmmmmm.. something is wrong.
a way stubborn bruise.

since don't know when, it is common for me to get blue-blacks..
when awake and/or asleep.
i heard.. long time ago that there's this sickness.... (i presume it's true)
where people who have this sickness get bruises soo easily (only a small bang/knock)
and it is because they have too many or too little white blood cells....
i forgot.
and it is not.... i repeat.. NOT a good thing.

alright.
I'm feeling sleeeeppppy already. so early
ah HA!
FATIGUE.
a sign of H1N1 virus. *coughs!*

ballet + fyp + sch

2009-06-01T21:24:00.004+08:00

arg.

today's insane...

every alternate thurs

LM practical..

one word to describe.

SUAY.

always and only this practical....

bad luck for me

and because of this..

my group members also kena..

sigh

i'm really sorry about it.

one week to go before the start of the 3-week holiday-like-NO-holiday..
busy busy.

first priority - FYP

+ ballet

+ study

+ work

:( :( :(

hopefully next monday will be the offical grand start of our FYP.

and hopefully nothing goes wrong.

and and hopefully Dr Tang is in good mood, or else...

we can go eat shit.

LOL.

sounds bad yea....

YEAH. right..

her face can be as black as the eclipse*.
hahahah!

*LCS's famous phrase.

DREAD thurs...... :(
hope that day won't come.

Arg..

i have this bad feeling that i will do badly..

real bad :(

ahh but whatever!

let's get over and done with it, Jeslyn!

Go, go go! :D

yes yes yes!
i got my new dance shoes..

1 hard pointe shoes and another pair, soft pointe..

extremely hot la the shoes........

melts!

HAHA X)

now its time for me to get use to the two new pairs.

i need a beautiful arch....

like this! :)

always a child, i wished

2009-05-28T23:00:00.003+08:00

it's friday again tomorrow
another week has passed..
1 more week older.
happy. yeah
LOL
i think since this year started, i've been constantly thinking.. and wanting very much to enter ntu.
but its, like, kind of difficult... unless my GPA for this yr (which is the last year) to be like 3.8, to be able to pull my points up.
now, i really wished time could turn back to when i was in year 1 so i could work hard and get like damn high grades.. THEN i wouldn't have to suffer now!
but, what's done is done. so yeah.. face it, RY :)
i would just need to work harder....
sounds easy ya.. but NOT!
"try to achieve MERIT. i know its not easy, but only when on the graduation day then you'll realise the good of it" as quoted by the CSfW (Communication Skills for Work) teacher.
Only the top 5% each course can get it.
come on la.
i can already name those who WILL get it.
it is all already confirmed.
so there goes... bye.
i can only try to get higher points for this semester and the next.
somehow, i don't know when it began, i start to dislike teachers who have the idea of us.. students of diploma in chemical processing...to work right after getting the diploma.. as laboratory technicians, chemist, etc.
But WHY?
can't we continue to further our studies? like, overseas or in local Unis?
no way no way no way am i going to get a full-time job after getting my diploma...
it's like, aging too quickly..
like a five-year-old kid having wrinkled skin of an old woman..
i wanna study man!
though, studying..........sucks.. sometimes.
BUT, somehow to me..
studying equals...
- still young
- parents still supporting me
- being protected, cared for like a small child
I don't know, sounds weird right.
yeah, I'm weird...
but who doesnt want their parents to nag at you, give you money, asks "how's school today?", wakes you up every morning, prepares breakfast for you, and also dinner, washes your dirty school clothes, fetching you with an umbrella through the rain to the bus stop, waits with you and only leaves when you're safely onboard the bus, says "eat already anot?" when you first step into our house, asks if you have enough money, wakes up even earlier than before to fetch you to school just because you're late or if it's raining heavily............
the list just goes on, forever and ever..
I WISHED I COULD BE A CHILD in my parent's arms, like forever!
don't you?
sigh.
another question on my mind, since forever..
what will happen to me in the future, without my parents by my side?

2009-05-22T23:10:00.001+08:00

Nino Ananiashvili - Georgian Ballet Star - The funniest videos are a click away

BALLET

2009-05-22T22:44:00.003+08:00

I'M BACKKK! :)

yay it's friday again
there is no school!
woke up close to 12 today, ate left-overs from yesterdays pizzahut's curry zazzle baked rice, watched the "Price is Right" gameshow *wished i won 1ok USD*, help aunt to do some stuff to earn extra cash, went online, facebook-ed, then youtube, music music & more music.... then 1 1/2 hours of ballet.. and home.
today's class wasnt gd for me.. sigh.
but, oh well, hope tmr's lesson will be better.
Improve please, Teo Ren Yu! :)
Dance, Ren Yu LOLLL!

i really wonder how could those professionals make it seem so easy..
i can't even do one pirouette perfectly.. and yet they can do dozens of them.
GOODNESS!
teach me please!
so that i won't always embarrass myself in class :(
always feel so lousy after class.... and sometimes dont even have the urge to go for the next class.
so so disappointed in myself..

Maybe, i'm just good at watching others turn.. and not turning, myself..
blah.. i will improve (: (:

Good-Bye Mrs Tan-Lee Kwee Choo

2009-04-22T22:17:00.003+08:00

If i've chosen Food tech instead of IC...which i regret it a little..
i will be at Da Lian now!
ah, sigh..
there are so many chances for me to go overseas
to get experience
knowledge
fun
fun
fun
But yet, always i throw that chance away.
I'll sure treasure any opportunities that come my way again.
problem is, that day will never come.
oh well. :)

I'm not sure myself why i chose IC...
when food is much more interesting
when many of my friends chose Food
When my aunt asks me why IC instead Food?
my reason was that..
Because choosing Food tech, i would have to study Bio..
Memory Work
which i dont really like.
And because i did well for IOChem.
and i super like the teacher, Mrs Tan-Lee Kwee Choo, who helped me do so well..
i thought she will be teaching me
so, i will again do well..
But Nay.
She's Leaving.

However, i really hope that i can do well...
to do her proud
and somehow, she will know
and be glad.

From the bottom of my Heart,
Thank You Mrs Tan.. for Everything :)

:)

2009-04-04T00:56:00.002+08:00

HELLO there.

first and foremost, i hate april fool's day.
that Shannon, the registrar.... arg
Me: *was opening the fuel parcels*
Shannon: "hey, why you all open the parcels? cannot anyhow open the parcels one you know. These cannot open!"
Us: "huh!??" (cause we know we'll be in DEEP TROUBLE if we open a parcel that is not to be opened)
Shannon: *laughs madly* "APRIL FOOL!"
i almost died.
and Atiqah almost had a heart attack.
after that, though we laugh and all...
i was rather pissed off.
how can she joke about work?
crap shit..
and now she's still harping on that incident that happened like 2 days ago.
praising how clever she is to have fooled us all.
and how unlucky am I on that day....
later on, i spilt the diesel sample!
what a Bad day.

yeah. my phone is dead.
i lost all my contacts.. sigh
so, forgive me for not answering calls or whatsoever okay :)

i love rainbows!

2009-03-22T00:53:00.005+08:00

"Let's go to Blush..."
**BLUSH = a store that sells female lingerie
a voice over everyone else..
from a guy to a girl.
most probably his girlfriend
Disgusting..
they're both way too open minded
i feel... or
maybe i'm too closed minded
that's why.
but whatever.. it just feels so weird.
yeah.
random

--

results are out...
grades not up to expectations..
blahblah.
as always..
frequencies of "why am i so stupid" phrase being used increased
blah
too high expectations...
i say no.
that's because there are people doing better..
way better than me so,
why can't i do as good?
if only i'm cleverer...
getting superb grades would be as easy as eating a cake.
if only.. if only
so many if onlys...
impossible thoughts.
useless and waste of time..

ok, maybe my expectations were high..
but it is so i could improve
no way to improve if my expectations were way low.... right?
still, everyone has their own expectations for themselves.
and they wont be happy if they didnt do as well as expected.
agree?
yeah so..
gotta work harder..
be cleverer.
as quoted from Jeslyn, "Jy for next sem bah."
only hope..

--

to niliy nat -
your english standard is A*
the words you used to rebut the louis supervisor...
hahahha too cool until he's speechless.
LOL!
wonder how he look like in real person..
comfirm with the bian tai look..
only attract aunties to work with him.
HHAHA!
anyway, wish you better luck in finding better jobs next week.
don't give up yea :) CHEER UP!
you still have a month to earn $$..
:)
keep me informed too yeah :)

TODAY I SAW A RAINBOW.
SEVEN COLOURS.
SUPER CLEAR.
EVEN TOOK A PICTURE OF IT... IN THE CAR(actually i took more than one, but only 1 turn out nice)
YAY
I LOVE RAINBOWS! :)

almost the end of the 2nd week of ITP....

2009-03-13T22:19:00.002+08:00

yooHoo! I'm back again.
hahahhs!
It is almost the end of second week of my ITP.
why "almost"?
Because i have to work on saturdays!
alternate sats.. if i work 1st shift.
suck right lol! yah
but whatever. 5 more weeks to go and then YAY! :)
adding all meal claims, overtime pay and taxi claim....
weehee! I'll be getting more than $$440 per mnth! LOL
MONEY FACE.
can't read my, can't read my,
no you can't read my MONEY FACE.
:)
yeps. so a little sacrifice is worth it?
NOT.
okay... now only the flash point part is fun!
cause i get to do it.
cool cool cool!

Arg. hate the part of doing the logbook..
come on la... words in the graph- like space very messy meh?!
my writing is not that lousy OK!
why must i type it out. sigh!
spend so much of my time to write it out nicely..
and that supervisor of mine....
spent only like a minute to briefly read through it.
saying he's too busy..
doesn't have the time to read it but have so much time to smoke.
crap!
waste of my time completely.
wished and still wishing i got the other supervisor..
instead of this old, lazy and breath reeking of smoke one.

But other than that, the other technicians are great!
There's this lady.. who worked there for 20 years plus...
She's from SingaporePoly!
way cool huh.
Anyway, most of the people there are from SP. hahahah!
and they still remember famous teachers...
who are good, and who's not!
It's like becoming a SP company. LOL!
despite working there for years...
everyday, i see them enjoying their work.
Although its a boring routing.
but i myself, nahh i can't.
i can only admire them from afar.
yeah right! hahahhas.
sick.

and every now and then...
i think.
Will i miss working life when i'm back in school?
Will i feel sad on the last day of work?
Will i miss them?
Will they remember us?
Hmmm
i think too much already! HAHA!
i guess they will be feeling happy that we're gone...
No one to interrupt them halfway while they're doing the test..
and they dont have to face "young" people, making themselves feel old.
yahyah.. :)

ahh got to go already.
have to work tmr
and it's starting at 7.30!
oh shit.
Better not be late RY! :) :)

ITP 1st week

2009-03-07T23:36:00.002+08:00

I'm back again!
after one whole week of ITP.. attachment that is.
first day of work,
kind of dragged my feet all the way there..
not looking forward to it.
BUT, luckily there's a friend to acc me!
hahahah
and she's Atiqah!
working hours seemed shorter with her around.
but the sad part is that it's only for the first day..
cause
there's SHIFTS! argh
and we'll be on alternate shifts. BOO right
And i thought we could like stick together ..
but anyway, at least we still have that few hours to crap and stuff.
hahahha! fun..
i love the 2nd shift..
though end work late,
but can take taxi home!
claim-able taxi receipts. woohoo!

Okay, more about the company..
Petroleum company.
and nope, it does NOT supply petrol...
more like receiving petrol samples from
hm, mostly ships i guess
from all over the world! *cool
the skillful chemists will then like test the samples...
flash point, pour point....etc.
lots and lots of tests.
It's fun, but we can't do the testss!! arg.
what ITP students, like us, do there is the washing of equipments.
and cutting of the one whole year's supply of chromatography paper and platinum wires..
super boring.
boring but slack..
packing of samples in storeroom is way fun... i feel.
get to climb the "movable stairs"..
haahs :)
about the people there..
they are alright.
just that you have to talk to them first...
after working for awhile, you'll find that
they're actually a group of friendly ppl.
very very knowledgable.
way experienced.
the very surprising, shocking thing is that..
some of them look really young, but married and with kids.
like wow.
okay maybe they look young because they have their labcoats on.. most of the time.
so, they look like poly students.
hahah!
oh yeah! and most of them were ex SP students!
and a few from DCP too. but were called CPT last time..
they went there directly after graduating.

Nooo, i want and i must continue studying after graduating from poly.
please please..
JY me!
jia you everyone too!
can study of course study luh. right? :) :)
RIGHT!

next week will be working 1st shift.
gotta wake up super early.. sigh!
hope i won't be late for the bus!
kay, i'm off.
safe night everyone! (:

What is my true fear? Losing someone....?

2009-02-25T21:16:00.004+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Where Your life is Going
Looked down on
Disappointment
Death
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

saw this on Reggie's blog. hmmm.. kind of true?

its fun to do quizes (: (:

i'm back.

2009-02-25T17:09:00.007+08:00

Hey-al!
here's my new blogskin(:
spent quite some time looking for one...
and finally
There!(:
was looking on keywords like colours, rainbow...etc.
such girly themes. yea i know
at least i found something that i like :)
its plain..
white all over except for a little picture.
hahaha. kiddy-one!
but as compared to the rest...
not bad already luh.
some had really nice pictures but the layout was soo OUt!
so wasted.
i found out that i didnt really like dull colours..
though it gives ppl the calm, homely feeling
but i just get tired of it easily.
so YEAH. it must be filled with colours..
many, many of them.
but not too much until its like crazy..
and after reading, i'll see spots of white.
like little atoms... haha!
ok. im crazy
the weather is great now!
love this kind of weather... the smell of rain..
would be even better if i have a bowl of mummy-made green bean soup to go with.
warmness 101%.
but of course..
not this weather on an outing day!!
damp damped dampened.
was thinking of sitting the bungey thingy...
if i didn't rmb wrongly
at clarke quay..
3, 2, 1..
POOOOMM!!!!
it's like a super great way to de-stress!
to scare the shit of out you.
scream it all out...
and DONE!
stress-free!
hahahhahs.
yesyesyes i MUSt try it one day.
SOON!
and NO, its not because i'm stressed.
just the sudden thought, the urge...
I'll go sit it..
let's say
if something good happen to me?
yes! if something good happen to me
i'll sit the ride definately!

YES, it's the final paper left
but one of the toughest module
to me..
well, the last....
GO, TRY! :)

*and ya, it's a MUST for the background to be white..
so i can add all colours to the words.
coloursss
rainbow rocks! woo.
hahahaha

Would you just listen?

2009-01-21T22:26:00.002+08:00

Happened to chance upon this....

Would you just listen? By Tara Kay

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,How you felt around me? The memories we shared,And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.

Now think about how we parted, and how much I cried,But please don't speak, remember that I never ever lied,That I told you the honest truth about why we were to split,But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.

The pain was deep, unbearable and painful, for so many years,I'll never forget all the sadness, all the uncontrollable tears,Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got,And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.

You were a special part of my life that I will never forget, A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret,You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart,Although sometimes I wish that you and I didn't have to part.

You were my first love and my true love, that will always be so,After all of the heartache, sadness and never ending pain, I know,You and I had something special and that will never change,Because I love you and loving someone else will always seem strange.

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, not ever,I'd like you to remember that once upon a time, we said forever,That I had hopes and dreams, that I was the one who threw them away,And this is something I will always regret until my dying day.

dead meat for fyp

2009-01-18T00:25:00.002+08:00

hais.

bad way to start.. i know.

but haisssss.........

i hate ppl who forces me to do something..

(mostly things that i don't wanna do...)

keep asking me for answers...

those things that i don't really want

but i just dont know how to reject..

sometimes, i think i don't have a choice.

the heart and the head has a part to play.

all of you are full of motives..

everything you do.

am i like being used if i go with what u say?

i must think for myself too.. right??

handling things on your own...

is real tough shit.

like "you, yourself against the world"

i want to leave...

but can i??

nope.

i'll die on my own..

my si xue.

interesting facts.

2009-01-09T23:24:00.002+08:00

Hey people!
It's been long since i've last updated. hahaas.
Apologies! :) :)

life's boring....
almost doing the same thing everyday
eating the same food every lunch break
arg
i need to break out from this cycle! soon...
but nahh!
sometimes changes are not too good.
for me la..
cause i'm not flexible.
i don't really adapt to changes really quickly..
and thats a bad bad point.

i came across an interesting question
that may start you thinking..

Can blind people see their dreams?

-- i believe they can.. but what do they see?
from the voices of humans they hear, without touching the person himself.. how will he imagine the person to look like?

And some funny ones! :D

" If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?? "

" Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, "I think I'll squeeze these dangly things here, and drink whatever comes out"? "

And a amazing fact which u can test it out!

" If you part your hair on the right side, you were born to be carnivorous. If you part it on the left, your physical and psychological make-up is that of a vegetarian. "
-- yay i'm a center-parting. LOLS!

and some "Way too cool" facts! "believe it or not! find out for yourselves!"

Babies are born without kneecaps. They appear when the child is 2-6 years of age.

The colder the room you sleep in, the better the chances are that you'll have a bad dream.

The fastest growing nail is on the middle finger.

keep thinking! or your brains may freeze!
HA!
Bye for now! (:

hate guys

2008-12-07T21:41:00.002+08:00

Yay yay.

Exams are over.. :))

but...

there are still reports, datasheets to complete!

Sat Seh ah!

SP students are the busiest poly students!

aiiyo..

anyway, ytd de ytd was fun!

thou material sci paper is bad bad bad.

mou ngnan tai =(

went out with jeslyn. that ho-ho girl..

crap aaalott!

hope she enjoyed herself as much as i do.

hahahah!

SAD sad thing is that don't have shou huo..

enormous BOOOO!

On the way home, in the train..

there's a group of friends

they talked about anything and everything..

friends, food, school, tv show, games.....

so happy together.

I wish i have friends like those....

But then, i still love the friends i have now. :)

every hour, every minute, every second...

my brain is thinking non-stop

crazy brain.

hahaha

do things for yourself, not for others nor what you want them to think u are.

why do thing for others, when it is your life.

why make others happy while you suffer?

what's the point of changing yourself when no matter how hard you try to be better, the person don't even care.

if the person "dui ni you pain jian".. no matter what you do. he'll find faults in it..

its the same as :

a pretty girl, no matter wear what also pretty.

an ugly girl, wear how nice also ugly..

you may "mi dao" others...

but u're forever the ugliest to me.

want it.

try to make it happen.

got it.

rejected it.

get tired of it.

disgusted..

YI LIN... only you know what it means..

arg help me!

random

2008-11-19T22:12:00.004+08:00

sigh.
i feel that people around me mould me to become who i am today...
and what i'm going to be in the future.
is that a good or a bad thing?

can i blame the people around me?
or it's my fault.... i chose what i wanna be..

i don't know..
i'm so confused, pissed, fustrated...
so many whys..

Must i continue treating people the way i want to be treated while they treat me the way i don't want to be treated?
hate it!
it is so unfair...
arg.
they don't understand, won't understand..
at the first place, they don't even bother.
a small thing like me.....

Big Deal!

"why must i lend you MY stuff when u don't lend me YOURS?"
"why must i lend you MY stuff when u don't lend me YOURS?"
"why must i lend you MY stuff when u don't lend me YOURS?"
"why must i lend you MY stuff when u don't lend me YOURS?"

WHY WHY WHY????

I'm getting very selfish....
NOooo!
teoRY!
no way. no way.

life's bad.
just because it's not going my way.

69bucks sweater......

2008-11-14T23:20:00.000+08:00

$69 kintted sweater!

ARG. kill me!

like an atom...

2008-11-10T23:40:00.002+08:00

sorta get inspired by Mrs Tan-Lee Kwee Choo today during osrm lesson...

Like an atom,
a person ... after breakup..
will never be
like before.

more excited?

yeah... mae-be!
will quickly get attached again ..
to become stable.

lol lol lol

Weird song

2008-10-31T22:45:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LxYfMRtun5w

weird... but ..

still weird.

all around ballet

2008-10-26T01:06:00.001+08:00

everything's about it

yay, no?

can i commit?

2008-10-24T23:22:00.001+08:00

tuesday, friday and saturday.....

can i commit?

i must!

it's the only way to improve..

JY me :(

i gotta improve....

2008-10-18T00:45:00.002+08:00

improve improve improve..

that's what i need to do now.

i can.

i know i can!

i'm rusty

2008-10-11T23:35:00.001+08:00

Rusty

was the word

.

Ballet....

2008-10-08T16:54:00.003+08:00

Should i? Should i not?

To Forget You by Low Kay Hwa.. and more!

2008-10-07T13:07:00.004+08:00

"What if you are forced to forget your true love?"

Before I met you, I wondered why all the lyrics in love songs were so exaggerated: Why do lyricists create such mushy and overemotional sentences? Why can’t they just write a good melody without those melodramatic lyrics? That is plain exaggeration.

Before I fell in love with you, I thought romance novels were just so silly: Why would a person cry for another person for hours? How could a person wait for his lover for years? That is plain silliness.

Before we became a couple, I thought romance movies were just so stupid: How could a person love another person so deeply that it became an obsession? How could one sacrifice so much, even to the extent of his own life, for his lover? That is plain stupidity.

When I realized I had fallen so deeply in love with you, I finally understood that songs, novels and movies are just reflections of life, inspired by the writers’ true stories.

Because when I decided to end our relationship, I realized our story mirrors a love song that I once heard, a novel you once read and a movie we once watched.

-- extracted from To Forget You by Low Kay Hwa

"Why are we always trying to impress everyone around us?"

Why must I always wear different masks wherever I go?I am so sick and tired of my life. Who can help me tear away these masks of mine that are lingering in my skin? Why must I play the role of a strong daughter in front of my parents, a smart student in front of my teachers and a contented girl in front of my classmates? Why must I keep on telling everyone around me that I am the best, by putting on the multiple masks of disguise for different people?

This afternoon, I looked into the mirror and realized that I could no longer recognize myself. My reflection was of a faceless girl, awaiting the next mask to be placed on.

Why are we always trying to pose for the best posture for the camera, when we know we can never change reality?

--extracted from Journey by Low Kay Hwa

"What if you overlooked what your mother had sacrificed to bring you up?"

When I was ten, my mother called me “ah girl” and I had always responded to her. When I was fifteen, my mother called me “ah girl” in front of my classmates and I scolded her. When I was twenty, my mother still called me “ah girl” aloud and I ignored her completely.

I know that, from her point of view, no matter how old I am, I will always be the “ah girl” who calls her “mama”.

From my point of view, my mother is just an old woman in the house who lives with me. Her responsibilities are to make breakfast for me in the morning, give me money to spend in the day, do the laundry in the evening and switching off the lights at night. For all those things that she did, she will have the authority to scold me or ground me.

Until one day, she calls me and says, “Ah girl, I’ve got cancer. I may die within the next six months.”
That is when I realize that my mother is more than that.

--extracted from Journey is Low Kay Hwa

the Peony Pavilion

2008-09-25T21:24:00.002+08:00

The Peony Pavilion

Mengmei changed his name because of a dream.
Liniang fell sick because of her dream.
They both treated their dreams as real.
A ghost is merely a dream and a dream is nothing but a ghost...

first day of work......

2008-09-24T20:22:00.000+08:00

YAY!

first day of work (:

hope i can endure through the training phase.....

Family or God?

2008-09-22T00:11:00.002+08:00

Read it. No offence.

Here's a true story.

There is a son. He is a lawyer.
One day, his father's business faced some problems.
And money is needed to solve it.

From young, his father worked hard like an ox everyday to support him.
Earn money for food, gd schools, tuition teachers.. etc.
And now, when the father met some problems.... the son should help his father when he have the capabilities to do so.. right?
But, he didn't.

He rather give the money to renovate his church.
"It is a father's responsibility to care for and support his son. But for a son to care for his father, there's no reason to and i do not have to. I rather play my part at the church... so that when i die, i will have a house in heaven."

I've got nothing to say..

CANOEING!!! plsplspls!

2008-09-19T23:20:00.005+08:00

hahahhaha!

i fell down today...!

"finally... after like years..!"

"TOUCH WOOD", laughed Yi Lin.

it's like i am dancing..

just out of a sudden, i sat on the floor...

in a quite..... Nice Manner!

hahaha! hyper funny...

hope not many people saw.. or it will be like "ARGGG!"

F.Y.I i did not sprain my ankle nor get bruised nor bled (:

only tears of embarrassment and shock and humour!

YAY! Really hope can take up canoeing with my bestie (:

so so so looking forward!

OH PLS!

=]]

B.T.W (your lip gloss is soooo not glossy anymore!.. NAH!)

we borrowed each 2 books!

chi-na chi-na NOVELS!

LOVE thEM LIKE CRAZY!

Introducing.... the Authors!

*drum roll please!

dralalalallalalla! PINKG!

LISA SEE

AMY TAN

and

PEARL S. BUCK

*highly recommended!

Did a good deed today too! (:

and i can solve the rubik's cube!!!!

Woohoo!! =D

HATE ENGINEERING!

2008-09-16T23:12:00.008+08:00

Engineering is sooo not for me!

DAMMNNN!

no offence Yi Lin!!

I'll tell you more later when i see ya!

JOBLESS!!!

2008-09-16T23:12:00.006+08:00

Everything happen with a reason!

ok, so what's the reason for till now i still haven't get a job!??

Arggg... *Big Sigh!

i think the reason is to prove to me that it is difficult to find a job in Singapore..

But NO!

It is Easy ok.....

but you just have to work permanently & long term!~

Boo! X(

I'll keep trying..

No harm trying anyway! (:

finding jobs, going for interviews.....etc.

It's also a thing to do to pass time?

Yeah! It is!

but wait... it also means more expenses.

Oh god.

- i wish, i wish with all my might..

to fly back home,

until next time! :)

I Love Miley Cyrus!

I Love Hannah Montana!

LEVI'S PLEASE!!!

2008-09-14T00:17:00.001+08:00

"Irashaimase!! "

First and the last time...

shouting out loud

that word

hahahhahha!

yay we quit.

Levi's NEXT!

stay tune-d (:

MY FAV WATCH!

2008-09-12T21:37:00.001+08:00

Baby-G watches (bg 5601 4dr/1dr)

DAMN PRETTY RIGHT!!!!

looks even nicer in real i tell u!

$108!!!! arg.....!

MyAiM!

Gonna get it no matter what!
yays!

your hippo looks. :)

2008-09-11T18:31:00.005+08:00

OMG!

You look like a hippo.

the first thought when i see your photo.

hahahahaha!!

hyper random.

-i will never get what i want.

i don't want a thing.

I WISH I WISH...

2008-09-09T02:45:00.003+08:00

TOYS"R"US HIRE US PLEASE!

I'm so looking forward to the gift wrapping part.....
(:
(:
(:

fingers crossed x)

" i wish, i wish with all my might
to fly with dragons,
to a land of hearts.... ,,

Some Good Advice!

2008-09-08T23:44:00.003+08:00

Hope this would inspire and motivate you to live an abundant life.

:) :) :) :)

Don't let someone become a priority in your life,

when you are just an option in their life...

Relationships work best when they are balanced.

----------

Never explain yourself to any one.

Because the person who likes you doesn't need it,

and the person who dislikes you won't believe it.

----------

When you keep saying you are busy,

then you are never free.

When you keep saying you have no time,

then you will never have time.

When you keep saying that you will do it tomorrow,

then your tomorrow will never come.

----------

When we wake up in the morning, we have two simple choices.

Go back to sleep and dream, or wake up and chase those dreams.

Choice is yours...

----------

We make them cry who care for us.

We cry those those who never care for us.

And we care for those who will never cry for us.

This is the truth of life, its strange but true.

Once you realise this, its never too late to change.

----------

Don't make promises when you are in joy.

Don't reply when you are sad.

Don't take decision when you are angry.

Think twice..., Act wise.

----------

Time is like a river.

You cannot touch the same water twice,

because the flow that has passed will never pass again.

Enjoy every moment of life...

----------

First i was dying to finish my high school and start college.

And then i was dying to finish college and start working.

Then i was dying to marry and have children.

And then i was dying for my children to grow old enough so i could go back to work.

But then i was dying to retire.

And now i'm dying.

And suddenly i realised i forgot to live.

So, please appreciate your current situation and enjoy each day.

People do move on....

2008-08-25T22:48:00.001+08:00

People do move on...

"No, I'll wait.."

SU! you liar!

;D

fail le la.........haix

2008-08-21T21:48:00.000+08:00

so dead!

hahahahahha!

drop

drop

DRop!

stupid fools

2008-07-31T23:22:00.003+08:00

Big sigh.....
how will you feel if you're betrayed by someone.. and the someone is someone close to you?
I think i'm going crazy already.
Sometimes i think it's better if i'll just sleep and die..
and maybe,hopefully the person will regret what he/she had done and cry for me?
The person might even jump with joy for i'm no longer around... hindering him/her.
But maybe the person will feel sad for there's less one person he/she can step on to bring himself/herself to a higher position..
what foolish thoughts....
cause i'm not brave enough to do it. takes alot to leave everything behind...

What is depression really?
Cos' i feel I have gotten it..
For no reason i feel i'm being forced, pushed, stressed... but there's actually no one there.
Maybe i'm the one stressing myself.

How I wish people are more straightforward... it saves lots of troubles and misunderstandings..
I mean it's like better to tell the person directly than tell others...and the others tell the person.
It will hurt the person more... much much.. so much more...
people understand this "theory".. but yet they're repeating the mistake again and again..
Even if you really wanna tell others... pls! oh pls! be smarter....... way smarter.. don't tell a big mouth! unless you deliberately wanted all this to happen.. if so, what an evil heart u have.
then, i've got nth to say.
Lucky for you, i believe your heart is not that bad la huh..
I believe you're just venting out/complaining to the person and its unfortunate that the person spreads it round. or who knows... you spread it so you can save your butt, and get the credit. Yupp.

If you want a person to do something, tell the person... Don't be dumb and keep quiet, thinking that the person knows what you're thinking. PLEASE! we can't read your minds! don't act like so wei qu..... when you actually wanted to do everything yourself! please don't jeopardise our names! if you're really our friend, you would understand... sadly, you are not.

sorry, i'm being so harsh on that.
Just wanna vent my anger..
not meant to shoot anyone.
but if you think i'm saying u, you don't have prove. unless you wanna admit you are a culprit of these things..
you can't put me down for there's no names mentioned.

Rubik's cube!

2008-07-27T00:20:00.004+08:00

I'm soo addicted to rubik's cube this few days....
ahh so fun. haha!
but I only know how to make the colours of 1 side the same.
anyone know how to make for all 6 sides?

TEACH ME!!
please please please! (:

Happy 18th birthday to me!

2008-07-26T00:25:00.004+08:00

YAY! Finally it's over.

Thank you ALL very much for the wishes.. and the gifts are all so pretty =D

Thank You thank you Thank You!^n

Today's the start of my Aunty life!

Woohhoo!

Boy, am i excited!

meaningful post

2008-07-17T22:16:00.002+08:00

Love can never be a sin. It can be only a blessing. Even if you're not loved in return... To love is a proof of life. Indeed, it's the only proof, for once you can't love another human being, you're not alive. It is love itself that is important.. The ability to love, no matter whom you love. For when you can no longer love anyone, you are no longer a living person. The heart dies if it loses the capacity to love.

You are like no other in the world, and not only you, but the humblest and the least beautiful creature also has this precious residue.

Are we to tolerate the stupidity and malice of the small?
Yes, because to destroy them would be to destroy ourselves. None of us is so much better or wiser than any other than he can destroy a single creature without destroying himself.

If life were known one moment ahead, how could it be endured?

Because you have suffered is the one reason why you should never make others suffer. And of what meaning is suffering, if it does not teach us, who are the strong, to prevent it for others? We are shown what it is, we taste the bitterness, in order to stir us to the will to cast it out of the world. Else this world itself is hell.

NEED A JOB! gd luck to me!!

2008-07-05T18:01:00.002+08:00

Ehhs... :)

Hey everyone.. I need your help!!
Anyone know any part time job... for saturdays and sundays??
I need it......

no youth day for poly students! arghh...

2008-07-05T17:29:00.004+08:00

NO YOUTH DAY FOR POLY STUDENTS!
How unfair is that!
Arghh!
Aren't Poly students YOUTHS too?!?

Why JC students have youth day and not poly students?
I can't believe it!

And why poly students have to pay adult fees while JC students pay student fees?
We're of the same age range ok!

Also, not all poly students are rich people!
Plus our school fee is already so high... sigh.
Unfair Unfair Unfair!
PROTEST!!

MSTs over!

2008-07-03T23:04:00.003+08:00

BIG YAY for msts are finally over. Oleh!
but, there are still presentations.. reports... assignments to be done!
oh Man....!! sighh..
keeping having this thinking that tomorrow's holiday. what to do? Just smile! :)
I'm just too used to having holidays right after exams. hahhas.. what a big weirdo i am. Whutever! Self-declared holidays!

I always have lots of things i wanna type here... but once i come to the "posting page", i seem to like have a mental blockage. I cannot remember what i wanna say.. or anything interesting that happened during the day. maybe my brain dislikes me sharing my private thoughts and stupid encounters with others. my brain got a mind of her own.. haha!

Lately, my memory is getting real bad.. I just cant rmb anything?!
My appetite's not that good too...
feeling very hungry out of a sudden and then when the food comes..
a mouthful or two and i will already feel full. Real full.
sigh.. whats wrong with me?

I feel that I've change. to become another person... a person that is so unlike me. The things I say, the actions I do.. they are so..... something.. whats the word to use?
I have no motivation to do things and yet set high standards for myself.
I'm killing myself. Mentally..
who can i blame but myself?
I don't know whats the cause of all this but I'm very sure I can handle it.
i know i can.... can't i?

I have asked myself what I want many many times before, and yes i got an answer. but sometimes i doubt myself.. What if its not what i really want? and if so, what do i really want then?
Many what ifs..... and the answer will be still left ambiguous.

I think i have a sickness called Depression.
Aarghh!!

love sucks

2008-06-29T01:11:00.002+08:00

Flames to dust,
Lovers to friends...
Why do all good things come to an end?

I don't trust love.

never did..

maybe in the first place i didn't trusted myself....

My Lace Flowers

2008-06-08T03:11:00.002+08:00

The Best Picture Of the Day!!

nice isn't it? =]=]=]
love it lots!
lovely lace flowers....

the story of Marie and Minnie

2008-06-06T23:49:00.004+08:00

The Story of Minnie and Marie
extracted from "the Girls" by Lori Lansens.

Minne and Marie were borned joined at the chest (that would be a thorapagus conjoinment). The combined weight of the girls at birth was only seven pounds. By the time they were eighteen months old, they'd spent more time in the hospital than out. Minnie and Marie were physically beautiful babies with porcelain complexions and thick black curls, and they laughed more than they cried. The babies embraced and kissed each other often, but they also fought viciously and sometimes had to be restrained by the nurses. They were slow developing language skills but communicated easily with each other. For some reasons, they each called the other "Marie", which they pronounced "Me". Their adoring nurses and doctors called both babies "Me" too. Minnie and Marie were normal in all aspects except that they shared one heart, which began to fail as they neared their second birthday.

Specialists were brought in on the case, thoracic and vascular and cardiac surgeons, all of whom proposed sacrificing the sicklier baby, Marie, and giving the shared heart to the stronger twin, Minnie. Their mother, panicked by the ticking clock and the doctors' insistence that both girls would die if someting wasn't done, agreed to the surgery. She kissed baby Marie good-bye forever while she prayed that the shared heart would work in baby Minnie. The heart did work in Minnie, better than the doctors had dared to hope. When little Minnie opened her eyes a few days following the surgery, the roomful of doctors and nurses erupted with applause. The baby clapped too, then reached out to embrace her sister, frightened and confused to find her twin gone. Minnie searched the whole room for the face of Marie. "Me?" she whispered. The doctors and nurses fell silent. The baby looked around again. "Me?" she begged. "Me?" Then she looked down and, suddenly, seemed to understand that her sister had been amputated from her chest. "Hurts," she whimpered, touching the white bandages. She found the eyes of her mother, who by this time was awash in tears. "Me," Minnie said once more, then closed her eyes and died too.

RenYi gone malaysia!

2008-05-31T21:23:00.002+08:00

my brother's back, now my sister's gone to malaysia
hope she's having fun!!
=]

went out with Jeslyn ytd.
Shopping's GREAT!! (:

ML's coming home!

2008-05-27T20:01:00.002+08:00

oooLeh! my smelly fat bro's coming home!!
i wonder if he bought any nice things for us.....
:) :) :)

thestupiditytest

2008-05-23T22:32:00.002+08:00

TRY THIS!

100% not scary

see if u're really clever...

http://www.thegamehomepage.com/play/the-stupidity-test/

**hint hint: needs memory, careful observations n some luck!! [=

my pesky lil bro! =]

2008-05-21T23:23:00.002+08:00

Off he goes to melbourne...
it's almost the 3rd hour on the plane now.
wonder what he's doing....
he will be back in about 1 weeks time..
just gone but
i'm already starting to miss him....
Nahh!!
my pesky little brother =] =]

LOVE (:

2008-05-17T14:33:00.001+08:00

LOVE (:

Love is like

A cold in the head

Love is like

Things going wrong

Love is like

A banquet at least

Love is like

The jaws of the beast

Love is like

A day by the sea

Love is like

The ruin of me

Love is like

A passionate verse

Love is like

A perpetual curse

Love is like

The best thing I know

Love is like

Letting you go

hate school, hate everythingg!

2008-05-15T19:56:00.002+08:00

life's bad...
but couldn't be worse!
=)

trying so hard to be positive yet everything's still the same and not gonna change.
are others also experiencing or have experienced what i'm experiencing right now?
it's tough....
real tough..
but
Teo Ren Yu!
stay strong.
cry it out, let it all go...
and continue walking forward.
gogogo!

people just don't like u.
no matter how hard u try to be gd, they still dislike u.
it will be gd if u know the reason why..
but unfortunately......
everything's kept behind backs.

A series of events so closely related to one another that each one initiates the next.

never ending confidence...

2008-05-04T20:04:00.003+08:00

I found out that some peeps have never ending confidence in themselves..
and I envy them for that.
*winks*

stupid a***

2008-05-04T00:00:00.002+08:00

some "people" are just too thick skinned to notice that the problem actually lies in themselves.
but keeps complaining here and there....
to all people big and small around them.
things that the "people" complain, are mostly committed by themselves!
HA!
it's funny.

what goes around, really comes around. =)

feeling so blue...

2008-05-02T18:08:00.002+08:00

YILIN!!!

we have the same fate..

what to do? fan tai sui!!

just our luck.....

i hope it will get better.

=(

"happily ever after" stories...

2008-05-01T23:04:00.002+08:00

I love " Happily Ever After " stories....
I know it's childish..

And I know it's never gonna happen in real life.

i love my parents

2008-04-26T23:24:00.002+08:00

About a month ago, every afternoon i had lunch with my father.
Because now, school's started, i cant go with him for lunch.

Today while driving, my father told me that a few days back, he went back to the food court that we went last time to have his lunch.
He thought i went with him to lunch and he ordered a plate of food for me...

Somehow, i find it quite touching. hahas..

NAh, fake story.
But it was actually told by my father himself!
He still said it until so serious and i actually believed it.
Hmm, maybe there's a hidden meaning in the story?

But after hearing the story, for a moment, i really felt like crying.
I love having lunch with my father.
I guess it is the same for him too...
Every working day for me, the only thing i look forward to is to have lunch with my father.
I'd rather work than study.....

I don't dare think about what will happen when my parents are not there. Haix...

I love my parents..

-Treasure your family members.. really... Must.

NICE! touching..

2008-04-23T21:48:00.002+08:00

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do.
It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could
have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?

*People live, but people die. I want to tell you that
you are a friend.

bukit chandu

2008-04-23T21:12:00.002+08:00

Introduced to me by my brother. =}

See this Link!
I'm sure you'll hate the J*P***** after watching it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8OStIT7CgMk&feature=related

-we have to learn from our mistakes in order to improve ourselves. that's the best gratitude to our forefathers.

finding someone

2008-04-22T21:47:00.000+08:00

I'm finding someone.....

Cold Storage

2008-04-19T00:16:00.003+08:00

I'm so glad that i am still 17...

no offence to anyone older than 17. yea

so random...

ever wondered how it feels like to be the "auntie" promoting food products at supermarkets?
yeah "lucky" me gonna try it tmr..
set up booth,
wear some weirdo clothes with WINGS like an angel, selling butter!
i have to give out samples and,
persuade ppl to buy them!
gonna be tough work i suppose...
but rather worth it though.
$55 a day... 12-8pm with 1 hour break in between..
which means.... 1hr is $7.85!
thats quite alot.

all happens at cold storage... which outlet? i'm not sure myself.
"philadelphia cheese" that's what i'm gonna promote..
has 2 types: Plain and Light
Plain has 60% less fats than nornal butter or margarine.
Light has 80% less fats than normal butter or margarine.

not bad a thing to be promoting... hahas!

Tomorrow is going to be the first day of work there.... maybe the last too..

little poem =]

2008-04-16T20:14:00.002+08:00

made a little something on the way to the mrt. * with help from Jes! =]

i don't like school,
you too.
everyday's a boo,
so SHOO!

hahahs! lame yea i know, but still there's the contentment.

Everywhere I Go lyrics

2008-04-15T21:55:00.003+08:00

KATHARINE MCPHEE LYRICS
Everywhere I Go

It's funny how you think you really know yourself
Like you would never lose yourself to someone else
And I was up to thinking it was all about you and me
Silly, silly me

I should have never listened to a word you said
But I was always giving into promises
I never should have gone for
I should have never longed for you no matter how hard it gets
And I want this to be over
I so want this to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you

[CHORUS:]
'Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do, boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me
He wasn't man enough
To come and tell me
That I was never the one
Like you said I was
You could have told someone
You knew that you didn't love
Me anymore

If you had only told me how you really felt
I could've put my feelings into someone else
But I was busy thinking that was where I was supposed to be
Silly, silly me

But there was something about you that I couldn't resist
Can't put my finger on it but whatever it is
I never should have stood for (stood for)
Knowing you're no good for me
That's the way it is
And I want it to be over
I so want it to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you

[CHORUS:]
'Cause everywhere I go ('Cause everywhere I go)
No matter what I do, boy
I just can't get you out of my head
I want you out of my head
So it annoys me
He wasn't man enough
To come and tell me
That I was never the one
Like you said I was
You could have told someone
You knew that you didn't love
Me anymore

I tell myself
Get over you
It's so the right
Right thing to do
And just when I
Thought I was done
You pulled me in
For another run
I can't take this
I won't take this
I can't do this
I won't do it

Even if I know in the end somehow
It always comes back to you

[CHORUS:]
'Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do, boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me
He wasn't man enough
To come and tell me
That I was never the one
Like you said I was
You could have told someone
You knew that you didn't love
Me anymore

nice song =]
too bad i can't get the song in full for u people to listen.
but i can send it too u if u wan (:

betrayed

2008-04-14T23:12:00.002+08:00

if you don't know this person, don't assume u know.
'cause you don't.

don't go round telling ppl how he is when he isn't.
'cause he's not.

spoil their image, earn your trust.
say you didn't,
but you did.

change ppl's mindset, make them believe.
promise you'd never,
but u have.

you are still you
and that won't change.
that's what you do,
you'll always do.

-getting dirty looks and whispers from people you may not know?
u've been "betrayed", "black"marked..

2008-04-11T23:51:00.003+08:00

Quiz1

A. list 7 habits/quirks/facts abt urself.

I'M ...
1. a Work-a-holic
2. a Shopping Addict
3. Very Dependant on Friends
4. Emotional NOT Emo

I LOVE ...
5. Money
6. Babe-Watching
7. Singing

Quiz2

1. if you had a chance to go out wif the person you like and ur favourite celebrity for the whole day(separately), wat would you do?

#with the person i like - anything will do, cuz it's with someone i like =]

#With my favourite celebrity - grab something to eat or drink, and just simply sit and talk!

2. how do you feel now?

#exhausted, from all the walking today

3. if you can fulfil one wish, wat would it be?

#the one wish is.. to fulfil all my wishes!

4. hu are you thankful to?

#Everyone- they made me to become who am I today

5. important wishes for now?

#make my loved ones feel treasured
#live my life happily
#bring smiles to people's faces

6. if you can turn something in the past back, wat would it be?

#turn time back to sec 2- i wished i didn't quit ballet
(the regret of my life)

7. wat r ur main priorities now?

#STUDIES! yea baby.

8. wat makes you happy?

#to add liveliness to everyone

9. wat do you wanna change in you?

#level of confidence

10. wat song can represent your feelings now?

#not sure of the title... but part of the lyrics goes like this.. " Sadly u took my smile away. Everytime u look my way, it fades away... "

11. wat type of person you hate most?

#Fake-Ers

12. are there anything you wish to confess now?

#none. I only confess to myself.

13. wat is ur definition of a dream house?

#size doesn't matter as long as there's warmth. Home Sweet Home..

14. hu will you go to when you are feeling low one day?

#my Mother

15. wat you hope to achieve?

#to be an all rounded person- Family, Friends, Studies, Career, Character, Talents

16. wat age do you wish 2 marry?

#25

17. whr do you want to meet your other half?

#somewhere unexpected

18. hu made you angry 4 the passed few days?

#myself

19. if you hve a chance to confess to the person you like without giving ur name, wat will you confess?

#nothing, i won't confess.

20. wat are ur expectations 4 ur another half?

#Older and taller
#surprises and humours
#understanding
#lovable!

-end of 1st quiz i've ever done-

silent scream

2008-04-06T00:17:00.002+08:00

Silent Scream....

i knew it would end like this,
it's not much of a surprise.
feeling so confused and i don't know the reason why..
down and down as low as i can be,
sad to say no one sees.
everyday's passing by fast,
leaving behind only memories and the past.
moon rays fall on the swing,
the swing where i used to beam,
but for now,
i just wanna scream.
silently.

TEO stands for....

2008-03-30T01:30:00.002+08:00

Big discovery....

TEO stands for..

Treasure Each Other

?! how cool is that!

hahahha.. ok, maybe that's not really a big discovery afterall.

hey you people out there, try it for yourselves too.. when you have nth better to do.

can be quite interesting..... n funny sometimes.. haha!

x)
-laughter eases the tension

what do men know about women? lol.

2008-03-29T00:22:00.002+08:00

there's a book out in the market..
and the title is
" What Do Men Know About Women? "

guess what you'll see inside when u flip open the book.

GUESS?

ok.

Blank.
yup. you'll see all blank pages...

that is how much men know about women!

HA-HA!

test- how fast you can type

2008-03-24T00:53:00.001+08:00

Bored? TRY this!

see how fast you can type in 1 minute!

http://speedtest.10-fast-fingers.com/

hahahhaha!

60 words

Speed test

crop until stars!! tanya chua!

2008-03-23T23:38:00.003+08:00

some people live for the fortune,
some people live for the fame.....

what about u?

I live for the money that i can earn..
and the FEEL to spend em'..
haha! xD
YAY!

uhh Ya!
last friday, i cropped Tanya Chua's photo!
ahhh.... she's one of AAS's members too..
so cool!
and i not only cropped hers...
i cropped.. 2 other stars too..
but they're just not as famous and known by everyone....
plus..... another AAS's member is one of my secondary sch teacher, Mr Sulaiman!
TA-da! so qiao...

so fun! :) :)

Tomorrow's gonna be the same old boring day..
crop crop crop...
hope tmr there'll be interesting things happening to me! or the people around me...
someone please do something funny..
pls brighten my day!
hahhas.

i'm getting so hard-up for money nowadays...
earning back what i spent, and spending what i earned!
awh i can't save ><
yea save, but not on things i have a soft spot on.....
hehhes!

-treasure what you have in hand & be happy for who you are

happy birthday song composed by RENYU! ^^

2008-03-22T19:19:00.003+08:00

To all my Friends who are celebrating their birthdays in this month! :)

here's a birthday song, specially composed for all of U.

Song: Normal "Happy Birthday" song
Lyrics By: Teo Ren Yu

Happy Birthday to You,
May your Wishes come true.
Wish u Happiness forever,
Your Birthday will be Wonderful!

YAY!

hehes.

*future composer... lool!

inhumane acts.....to innocent animals.

2008-03-16T12:08:00.002+08:00

SAVE THESE POOR HELPLESS INNOCENT ANIMALS FROM BEING KILLED BECAUSE OF HUMAN'S DUMB NEEDS!!!!

China supplies more than half of the finished fur garments imported for sale in the United States.

This is a short video of animals being skinned ALIVE and moving.
imagine the pain..

PLEASE help!
Pledge to go fur-free at PETA.org

the next time you wan to buy a fur garment, think thrice...
will you bear to?

This is SO INHUMANE!

taxi drivers- new traffic law in S'pore

2008-03-14T22:51:00.003+08:00

New traffic law in Singapore!
" Taxi-s can pick up passengers & passengers can alight only at taxi stands! "

some passengers are unhappy with this new law.... n so are some of the taxi drivers..
thou it may be really inconvenient for them...
but it decreases the number of accidents on the roads!

believe it or not..
jus to pick up a passenger by the road side, a taxi driver may cut across few lanes or even stop abruptly.
this causes lots of discomfort to the other drivers on the road. (my father ^^- he complains lots about it)
n if the driver at the back of the taxi couldn't stop just in time to give way?
yup.
BANGG!
so, who's fault is it?

watched the tv programme " Frontline " .
they interviewed the passers-by, passengers and taxi drivers.. asking them for comments of the new law.
and a handicapped uncle was interview in the show.
He is happy with the new law, saying that it will be gd for everyone.
even the handicapped don't find it inconvenient so why are the abled people complaining!?!?
HaiiYo! >.<

people nowadays are getting lazier each day....
not only the children of Singapore are pampered,
even the adults too! are pampered....
by the Government!
hahas.
=)

job frenzy at far east plaza ^^

2008-03-11T22:23:00.002+08:00

TODAY'S a job finding frenzy..
walk round the whole of far east plaza,
looking on walls or glass doors to find a piece of paper stuck to it that says....
" Looking For FULL/PART time sales assistants "
walked in interview for about 10 shops there!
and only a few allowed us to fill in the interview form.
haixx! sadd...
either they said they were looking for permanent sales girls or "students need not apply" or experienced needed.
arghhh! wad de *ttoot!*
students are not as capable is it!
we're fast learners too ya!
they are just BIASed.
some of them are in need of ppl and yet when there are ppl who are willing to work for them, they reject them..
oh my... they're sooo 老古板.
but anyway, we're still applicable for some others..
So, i hope we will get a call from them soon!
JiaYou MISStanYILIN &.... me!
May the Force be with us. hahahha!

yayy..
school's reopening soon! x33
ole ole..
i wonder which option i'll get into..
and who will be in the same class as me...!!
ahhh.. nervous.

- it's always not easy to change environment when u are already comfortable with it.~

nice monkey balloons game.

2008-03-06T22:46:00.002+08:00

NICE game =D
play till the end and u'll feel the satisfaction!

http://www.addictinggames.com/bloontowerdefense.html

get your monkeys ready... n GO GO GO ! ! !

POP! that balloons!

^^

super random post..

2008-02-22T22:23:00.003+08:00

wee!
hello everyone! !
its been long since i've last updated.. hahas.

hmm, everyday's been great..
learnt many things each day...
fruitful n interesting! =DD
i've enjoyed everyday..
how abt u?

found a few jobs....
went to many companies..
met some idiotic ones too! >.<
like as if they're so big shot...
arghh!

Chinese New Yr's over... =(
about 2 months left.. to earn $$!!
must get a permanent 2 mnth's job soon....

watched L-change the world-death note 3 ytd...
the movie's not bad.. to me... haha!
ahhh sad thing is that..
L died..
BOO!~
but jus before, he smiled....

soon... today will be over..
super fast! hahas.
enjoy each day...
treasure the ones u hav..
take care!! ^^

disappointed...

2008-02-03T18:36:00.000+08:00

after the rain, there's always the rainbow...
but if the rain doesn't stop.. with the sun blocked, will the rainbow still appear?

after the rainbow...
does it means another rain will be on it's way?

I've tasted the rainbow....
it isn't as sweet as i thought it will be..
i'm disappointed....

CHRIStians..... NO!

2008-02-01T20:06:00.000+08:00

some things i don't understand, i ask..
but some how i received answers that make me doubt even more..
answers that make me disagree..

SELF-CENTERED
SIMPLE-MINDED
SELFISH
ssssssss
*ss!
ARGH

believe in yourself please.....
nth will help u unless u urself help urself!
plus... only u can help urself..
come on.. wake up.
are we still living back in the sixties?
gosh.......
crap
worse than in the sixties!
>.<**

what do the colours reveal...?

2008-01-31T17:40:00.000+08:00

Linked from THW's blOg.
http://www.goldinuniverse.com/default.asp

what do the colours reveal....

Name: Teo Ren Yu
Date: 1/31/2008
Colorgenics Number: 15462307

You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.
For some time now you have been feeling rather insecure. You are looking for - and needing - an environment that can offer you roots, stability and a position that will relieve you of excess tension and stress.

You are not an argumentative sort of person and 'rather than fight - you'd switch' (an old cigarette ad cliche). But when you try to assert yourself - as sometimes you may try to do - you meet with so much resistance and effrontery that manifests itself so obviously that you become hurt, indignant and resentful. So in order to have peace and quiet you tend to become inhibited. You keep it all to yourself but deep down, you 'feel' and 'hurt' a lot.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

test.

2008-01-27T17:02:00.000+08:00

did the test posted by TCT. (:

Teo Ren Yu25/07/1990

You are Silver Pegasus type, who looks active, and gives an impression of being a tom-boy.

You are extremely cheerful and good natured.

You can easily get emotional and start crying, you are rather too soft hearted.

Also, you are very obstinate and simple minded.

You easily give up on things and have weak will power to finish what you have started.

You tend to be sarcastic and critical, but on the other hand, you can show great devotion and dedication.

Your attitude lacks steadiness, and is always changing.

You always worry about what the other people are thinking and can be bit too sensitive.

But you are a person who naturally becomes a center of everything.

Your fast movement earns people's respect.

You have a natural born leader type of talent.

You will struggle on the contradiction between your ideals and real world.

You may end up doing something beyond one's imagination, so you must try to have self-control.

If you are opposed by someone, and although you know that they are right, you can not take it in easily.

You will be more successful if you can try not to go against people around you.

You tend to give too much attention to your family than to your lover.

This may cause a trouble in that your lover may feel jealous about you being too affectionate to your family than to him.

You should not force your convenience to him, and try to give him more affection.

You are more suited as a career person than to stay at home.

But once you get married you will take care of your family with great affection.

" Who says i have weak will power?! "

" not true not true! "

>.<

exams are over!!!~

2008-01-25T21:40:00.000+08:00

oooohhH!
yea! exams are over.. YIPEE-YA-YOH! ole!~
hahas...
next scary thing coming up.. will be.....
da RESULTS!
>.<
i wish i won't need to take it..

2008-01-19T16:53:00.000+08:00

feeling neutral....
emotions numbed..

someone tell me..
What am I really feeling inside....

right now i can't give up....

2008-01-14T18:50:00.000+08:00

Give Up..
all i want to do is to give up...
does all teenagers face problems like this..? haix...
I swear i'm troubled.

But for now...
Studying is my first priority.
End of semestral exams..
coming....& round the corner..
It must really pull me up.. Up Up Up!
Must work extra hard to improve my grades..
I must!
and I will.

my life, destroyed.

2008-01-09T22:01:00.001+08:00

People know what they are doing
They do things that they think is right.

Some things u do may seem fun but somehow..
It's hurting some others...
where you'll never know.

It's hurting me.
Now you know..
and Because of u,
a part of my Life
is Destroyed.

thank u!

2008-01-02T22:32:00.000+08:00

ooh! so long didn't blog le....
hahas. ps XD

1st day of school for new term and there's test! what the...!?
holiday just passed so quickly..
didn't really have much time to do the things i want to.
sigh.
but it's over.

3more weeks... yipee!
i'm both happy & sad..
overall happy cos' everyone hopefully will get into the option they want.. so yea!
=DDD

sad that we all will split....
but, it's life.
everyone have to go through it..
so might as well go through it happily?
haha.
only let the good memories stay..
only the good....
and thank u all for the experiences!
i've learnt alot..
without u all....
hm, i can't do it.
Thank yous!

Favourite song

2007-12-29T21:28:00.000+08:00

This song touched me everytime i hear it...
thanks to this song.. it makes my true emotion deep in me reveal...
although it's an old old song..
it still touch many who hears it.
the best few songs ever..
enjoy! ^^

My Celine Dion, Because You Loved Me
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

*[Chorus]
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

repeat *

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your
love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

repeat *

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

lovely.. isn't it?

2007-12-29T15:31:00.000+08:00

(:
from JM

my rose

2007-12-27T11:51:00.000+08:00

my rose...

thanks to tyL & trY
photography by tyL
object-rose from JM

sad carols...

2007-12-24T16:14:00.000+08:00

listening to Christmas carols when i'm feeling sad....
just makes me wanna cry..
awhile ago.... everything is fine..
and now..

1 word: MOODY

on Christmas eve? ahh.... =(
sigh sigh sigh...

breaking down.

2007-12-23T14:39:00.001+08:00

2 at once... or maybe even 3..
i think i'm gonna break down soon...

breaking one and accepting another.... i can't.
so, i'll jus not accept any one.
fulstop!

the few YOUs... <3

2007-12-23T12:41:00.000+08:00

blogging bout the things that i do not even wanna think about.......
haix.. haix haix! =D
haix jus makes me feel better!
ahh..
ok. no link...
only the few YOUs understand. (:

so, i don't know..
still dun wanna blog about it.
selective memory.. please start working now!
i need U....
hahas! =D

sorry JM..
thank u...JM! ^^

affecting me once again.

2007-12-20T13:02:00.000+08:00

assumes something but spreads rumours about it like it's true & so fast like spreading butter on a piece of bread.

are YOU guilty of this?

learnt something by seeing people? and doing it yourself?

GOSH!

i'm amazed. seriously!

XD joke.